So I'm on this medicine that helps me deal with things better; But I am by myself in sorting out my feelings. My wife talks down to me and this in my opinion is because people outside our marriage more easily accept her. I mean hey why wouldn't they accept her when I carry all her shit around on my shoulders. This baggage weighs on my very being. She only seems to attract broken individuals who have issues keeping their own relationships going but so easily jump aboard the "I can do polamory" boat for her. These men are smooth operators and I am forced to just smile because I can't be right. Gawd!! I am so angry I feel it coming out my pores. I am tired of so much and I promised myself my health will come first so its time for me to consider the hard decisions and protect myself.
I have been OFFICIALLY Bipolar for 2.5 weeks. No one gets this!!! I am trying my best to figure out simple shit like what foods do i still like!!! much less try to adjust to my wifes craving for men and not me!!
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God help me!!!!!!!!!